Update: Knights inn.

So, I’ll be staying at the Knight’s inn? The pictures don’t look tooo bad. But the reviews sound terrible. Also there’s no tv and no place within walking distance to go. So boredom will be a big problem!! Has a pool but I don’t swim. Not even internet in the rooms. Nobody not even my cat to talk to. Will be ithout my special interest and special friend. No attention has been paid to my depression. by my so-called “carers.” Guess you can’t put it in a box so they don’t care. What about me as a person? What about my Autism? Do I not matter? How much more of this pain can I take? Well, should I insist on the room with the  jacuzzi?

Phyisically assisited but emotional pain bandoned.

I feel emotionally abandoned, “Michael” is moving me to a hotel while he comes to my apartment and throw everything out. No consideration is being shown to the fact that my mom’s tables-the only things I have left of her-are not being preserved. They are showing no consideration for my feelings what so ever. It’s like they are saying, we’re going to take you to this hotel. You have to but your beloved kitty who I desperately need for emotional support-to a vet for boarding. Leave the window of my apartment open in a very bad drug infested neighborhood. Buy new furniture since mine will be discarded.  Isolate me in the hotel. Without access to my “support system” if you can call it that. Go without my special interest. The problems here have stemmed from my caseworker not doing his  job.  I am in a very bad depression. They told me they will replace my broken microwave and we are arranging for someone at another agency to come in a teach me life skills. Bought me a new outfit.Yet I feel emotionally betrayed and abandoned.  There seems to be no thought to my depression and fears. I’m not sure really how to explain it. “Therapy” would be a prescripted thing designed for those with other disorders. No real input or interaction about what I’m feeling or am going through. One on one therapy would only take place every one or two months. Hello? All I have is a hotline number. They don’t care about how ,my Autism is doing. Emotionally I feel like I have been to the Judge Rotenberg center. granted, they are planning to help me move. But it’s like an emotionally sterile reaction on there part. My family is not there for me. it will be nice to come home to a clean air conditioned place. But my emotions are taking such a blow that I wonder if I’ll survive it. Those tables are precious to me.  This pain feels like a physical assault. Can’t take much more. Tomarrow is supposedly D-day. That hotel sounds like torture.  Although much nicer than here. Don’t know what to do. Granted they are going to pay for it. Hotel because other place didn’t work out. Might call hotline. What if I say I don’t want to go to hotel and board my kitty? I almost dread the answer. All this stuff was planned without input from me. Oh well. I’m a tough girl. There is a large plastic tub to put things in. That stuff  I keep. the tables don’t fit inside.  Feel like I am betraying my cat by boarding her. what will she think?. Don’t want to go “Michael” But will see what happens.

Scott James – Through My Eyes (Live @ Autism’s Got Talent 2012.)

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‘Through My Eyes’ live at Autism’s Got Talent 2012, an event at the Mermaid Theatre which showcases the talents of autistic people from across the country. AGT was specifically designed to be a show environment safe and open for autistic people and is the first known event of it’s kind. Sorry for the sound issues, the track was louder than I was!

DVD’s of the event, featuring Britain’s Got Talent’s James Hobley, Autistic Superstars’ Carly Ryan and Martin Finn, and a host of talented children and young adults are available at: http://www.annakennedyonline.com/page…

For more information on Autism’s Got Talent, to book tickets for next years AGT, or if you’re on the spectrum and have a talent you’d perhaps like to show to the world visit: http://www.annakennedyonline.com/page… – Cheers! Quoted from the link.

 

Autism beyond the blue light.

Autism embracing the amazing.

I have an idea for an Autism education program. Not a flashblog book or video. Made strictly by people on the spectrum. Have a room where people sit down watch and listen. Have somebody talk, a film maybe. So many times I have heard that we don’t know what Autism moms go through. What about a speaker who’s child was one of those who was killed?  A sensory simulation with very bright lights, hot or cold temperatures and an unpleasant smell? If NT’s began to cover their ears or hold their nose, do “Quiet hands” and hold their hands in their laps? Call it Autism beyond the blue light and hold it during April? When people light it up blue. Tell them the truth!! So many Spectrumites speak up on Twitter blogs and Facebook only. Saying how bad things are and that nobody pays attention. Go to where the NT’s are!! Tell them abut Autism speaks. About the center where children are tortured. Tell them about the killing. About the discrimination in housing employment and parks. Tell them about the bullying. Many people are ignorant. But I can’t do this alone. And don’t know anyone on the spectrum here. Would like as many people with Autism involved as possible. Even nationally. This picture is from Twitter.

Autism Survival manual – an open message from me

Autism Survival manual – an open message from me

This is an open message from me Craig Thomson the creator of the autism survival manual here on you tube.
this is an open message from a person with an asd to the whole of the world. yes its a message to everyone on earth or perhaps anyone outside in the rest of the universe who might be able to see it just in case you never know. Quoted from the link.

A wonderful video!

I can’t take this much longer!!

The conditions I’m living in are unbearable. It’s at least 90 degrees in here. Forget repairs and I can hardly change clothes because this place is so bad forget about finding my shoes!! Boxes all over. From moving. I keep wearing the same pair of jeans because I can’t afford new ones. Boots because I cant find my shoes. It’s like spring here. There is no way to cool things down in here and I am worried about my dear kitty. My depression keeps getting worse and worse! The case-coordinator who is supposed to be working with me, is a joke. All he does is talk on the phone and tell me all the things he’s going to do. I have some applications for other apartments, but nobody will help me fill them out. My family has turned there backs on me. Wich is not uncommon with Autism spectrumites. I feel like I’ve been pushed into a hell  and forgotten. While the ones around me laugh at me. There is no Autism center here. The only place I supposedly could go here does nothing. That’s where the case-coordinator works. Only a homeless person could live in this place. Even dopers would reject it. With My Autism I can’t take the noise. The door will not close safely. Although there is  a lock on it.  I am in hell. My family has forgotten me because I’m low-income. While the ones around me have such better lives. I am tired of not having enough money for food. I blame myself a lot. Thinking if I wasn’t Autisitc it wouldn’t be like this. But what can I do about my disorder? I get really really down on myself. This place was supposed to be fumigated today. But no show no call from the ones who were supposed to do it. How long can I live like this? Please don’t “like this post unless you comment on it. Things are actually worse than described here.